2nd Anniversary Poem

I wrote this poem for Brent a couple days ago. Thought I would share:

I love you so much -

This much is true.

Wherever you're headed,

I'm headed there too.

Your love is so tender;

Your love is so true.

My love I've surrendered

Forever to you.

Two years married together,

Many more to come.

Because our love is forever,

We'll live forever as one.

Our love keeps on growing

As the time passes.

We'll live forever knowing

That our love surpassed:

The mountain's height,

The ocean's wave,

The bird's flight,

And, finally, death's grave.

Song of Songs 8:7 "Many waters cannot quench love; neither can the floods drown it."

Cupcakes and a Cute Girl

The first picture...well, isn't she just so darn cute?! Couldn't help myself...she's my little cupcake!

Finally made my cupcakes today. They are just for me. My reward to myself...actually more like I needed to satisfy this craving or I would die. Lol! I did take the time to decorate them. Nothing special though. Oh, the adventure I had with the frosting...let me tell you! It took 3 times before the frosting worked. The first two times, well...those people's recipes were jacked up! WAY too much butter and/or milk. So I adjusted. Anyways, here is the outcome...very yumm-o!

Too Cute Tuesday

I joined my cousin in this too cute tuesday! It's just a picture that I believe is too cute!!! This was taken at about 1 week. I didn't put it on facebook because I don't want to get in trouble for having partial nudity on there...even if it's just a baby. But she was just sunbathing and enjoying it so much. My mom said this looks like an Anne Gedes picture. I think Aveeno baby should pay me for this picture. Lol! Enjoy!

Baking...

completely relaxes me. This is why I studied it. This is why I earned my Certificate in Baking. Because whenever I feel stressed, I know baking something completely mouthwatering will make me feel better. Autumn was having a rough afternoon yesterday. Fighting sleep is a common thing for her around 2-6pm, depending on the day. I put her in her crib and she was crying, but I needed some time. So I put some headphones in, listened to my ipod and started baking. Is this mean? I think it depends on the type of mom you are. It's not mean if it means that you are not going to lose your patience with the baby. So, it wasn't mean. And it was, again, completely relaxing to listen to Buble while baking Banana Crumb Muffins. YUMMMM! And even now as I sit here drinking my coffee and eating a muffin, I feel completely relaxed. =)

Because I have had many requests...

I'm going to share my labor and delivery story. So many people have asked me about it. I'm not going to mention anything nasty or anything like that. But I don't know if men necessarily want to read. I know Brent probably wouldn't choose to read something like this. lol!

I walked into my labor and delivery room at 4pm on the Feb 11th. All the procedures that were to take place were explained to me in complete detail. By the way, I have to say this: Pres is the BEST hospital in Albuquerque. I don't care what anybody else thinks on this matter. haha! At around 5pm, they gave me the first dosage of med that was supposed to soften and stretch my cervix. I was 1cm dialated at the time. The med was a pill that went straight into my cervix, not through an IV. I was supposed to get a dosage of that every 4 hours for 10-12 hours. Then they were going to start the Pitocin to induce contractions. Well, I didn't need that.

My contractions started almost immediately. They didn't start to hurt until about 9 or 10pm. They gave me some pain meds through an IV that would not affect Autumn at all. In fact, it helped me for only about 30 minutes. It was supposed to help for 2 hours...no way!

Around 2am I got myself an epidural. There was no way I was going to go through needless pain and I needed sleep. I was 3cm dialated. While putting the epidural in, most doctors will send out all family. Well, that didn't happen. Brent wasn't watching. He was holding my hand as they were putting it in, but he peeked at the end. Not seeing anything, he still knew what was going on. He got really white and almost passed out! Stupid doctors for not sending him out of the room! They made him sit down and drink some juice and I said, "Breathe through this contraction with me. It will make you feel better." And so he did. lol! He felt better a little while later.

I fell asleep. Yay...except all the machine beeping and freaking out woke me up quite often. Around 8am a nurse came in to check on me. I was 10+cm dialated, ready to practice push. After one "practice" push, we realized I was ready to push. She saw the head. I pushed for an hour. I was told I was a great pusher. Yay me! I had to get an oxygen mask because mine and the baby's oxygen dropped while I was pushing. It helped! I'll remember that for the next time. They had to start a small drip of Pitocin because when I started to push, the contractions slowed down. Weird, huh? Yeah. They asked me, "Would you like to touch the head?" My answer: "No! Gross!" lol! Brent was asked to cut the umbilical cord. He had told me before he didn't want to. I didn't mind. It was his choice. So when asked, " Would you like to cut the cord?" His answer: "No!" All the people in the room except for me started to give him a hard time. Then I got on them, "Don't make him!" My own mother cut the cord. Oh! People that were present: a midwife (my OB was called to an emergency c-section), a nurse, Brent, my mom and my step-mom.

Autumn Grace Conner was born at 9:01am on Feb 12. 4lb. 13oz. 18 1/2 in.

Insurance Woes and Worries

I called Insure New Mexico call center today about Autumn's future health insurance. They were no help at all. I have Pres State Coverage. So I asked them how the process goes about for getting the baby insurance before she comes so that the her first appts are covered and I can get her a pediatrician. They said you can't. That was it: "you can't apply until you have the baby's social security number and birth certificate." Um...that won't be for about a month after she's born! Hello! What do I do in the mean time? "Go to the appts and if you are approved for medicaid/premium coverage for kids then we'll have back pay." If not... "You have to pay the bills out of pocket." As if! (Such a 90s phrase, but at that moment I wanted to say it. I did not, however, say it.) I just hung up the phone instead, after saying thank you. (For nothing went through my mind.) I can't get her a pediatrician without insurance. I can't do anything without insurance. So, when I go to my next WIC (women, infants, children food program) appt, I'll ask to see the woman there who works with medicaid. Maybe she will be able to give me more answers or help me with the process. My friend has medicaid for her baby and she said she had it the moment he needed it, so the logic is just a little off base somehow.
Funny that yesterday in church my pastor talked about anxiety. He said that in the United States 3% of Americans have an anxiety disorder. In New Mexico, 11-14% have an anxiety disorder. Do we have to wonder why when we have to deal with 1. stupid drivers, 2. people shooting people in a movie theatre (happened the other day), and 3. just dumb people in general? I find that God always gives me the message I need to hear...quite clearly. Well, I will give my anxieties to God. He will take care of everything. In the mean time, if anyone has any advice, I would welcome it.

Update

Since my last post was over 3 months ago, I figured I should give some sort of update. Although I'm sure most of you know all of my updates, I'll still give them in a short run down. Pregnancy is going fine. I am currently 8 months. I have mixed feelings about it being over soon. I do not want the back pain, leg cramps, and heartburn anymore. But I really do enjoy feeling the baby kick and how healthy it has made me the past seven months. For those of you who don't know, I struggle with IBS and I haven't had to worry about it the whole time I've been pregnant. And it is so nice! I really can't wait to meet Autumn Grace though! So, those are my current feelings.
I had placenta previa for a short time, but the placenta moved and everything is going great now. Autumn is a small baby, but hey...look at me, friends. I'm tiny too. And her daddy isn't a chunky monkey either. But we continue to get an ultrasound every month just to check her growth patterns. Autumn's room is almost all set up. Although a lot of stuff was given to me, there is a ton more that is needed. And that's what baby showers are for! lol! My baby shower is about a month away. The invitations should be coming out soon. And I'm stoked! I remember hosting a baby shower for my friend Maria. It was so much fun! The best shower ever! It looked like fun opening a ton of gifts that are not for me, but for the baby who would arrive soon.
Anyways, other updates: I graduated with my Certificate in Baking. I know I'm going to miss going to classes. I already do. With a baby coming soon, I'm not even attempting taking classes this semester. But maybe in a year or so, I'll go back. I've been praying about it and I honestly haven't felt God speak to me about a yay or a nay. So, we'll play it by ear.
Okay, my dog is begging me for breakfast so I had better quit. I just wanted to give updates to those few of you who read my blog. Sorry it took so long for anything to come out of it.